This is a follow up to a previous blog as posted here current-goals-and-how-i-have-set-myself-up-for-success.html
The summer here was weird, really hot and smoky as fires got out of control in the province next to us. Food prices went up, we had to leave our house for 3 weeks as it was repaired and had a funeral to attend in Manitoba, a long drive which took 5 days unexpectedly. Also the food plan service we were subscribing to was sold and no longer offers the weekly plans like we were doing.
We were successful in a month of meal plan eating. The meals were delicious but the heat and smoke affected me greatly I don't know that I had any more energy than before. Overall the cooking all the time was good but I felt stress. I dont know why I can't seem to balance out the pressure, instead of feeling better about making better choices I beat myself up about the bad choices I made.
I want to try the plan again as what I am trying to figure out the most: my rational vs irrational mind.
I know beating myself up is the automatic reaction and what I am trying to figure out more and more is how to battle that automatic and make more logical choices.
So instead of calling August an eating failure I am just going to go forward and make some better choices for September.
As for our step goal, I found it hard to be outside in the sun and the smoke and although I walked fairly regularly I did not always hit that 8000 step goal. And I did very little hiking.
It was not exactly the same summer that I planned but it was what I wanted in that I am testing certain things to see how I can create a system that works, that I can keep up and that is healthier for me.
The fall plans are tricky but they involve a lot of work so we can save up money. And I hope a lot of climbing and yoga.
I need to focus on my mental health and balance.
I will set up some new goals and check back in, but for now I am deep in a tech week at my theatre which means long days of nothing but work.
there are facts and then there are emotions. This is as honest as I can be about my struggles and triumphs.