I AM AN ADVENTURER (ISH),CLIMBER (ISH), TREKKER (ISH)
Hello! Im Shannyn. 41 years old and full figured, plus sized, FAT!
Im adventure (ish): meaning I venture into the unknown to me. I have been out adventuring here and there to various levels of daring for about 17 years. Adventurish was started in 2016 after a few years where I really lost speed as my confidence dropped and all the plans I had changed. I always wanted to be a parent, but we tried for a long time, spent a lot of money on fertility treatments, had 2 miscarriages and one ectopic with the most recent in Dec 2018. And now we are done. I struggle with thinking I was broken, that my body was useless. And through the process of these fertility treatments I had gained a lot of weight and its much harder to lose. I have pretty much always been fat. Admiring from afar surfers, kaykers and climbers for their bravery and strength. But I have been waiting for something to change that would make me thin so I could be an athlete with them. But I began to believe I would never be different so my body was useless. What changed? I couldn't go on feeling as powerless as I did. I could not control my body but I could guide it. I could take control in my day to day life and the kind of self talk I was feeding myself. My body was not useless. It had gotten me this far after all. Im a part of the body positive movement and proclaiming myself a FATHLETE. SO WEIGHING IN AT 265 AT THE BEGINNING OF 2022 I LIVE LIFE AS AN ATHLETE (ISH) BECAUSE I DON'T HAVE TO WAIT TO BE SMALL. AND MY LIFE IS NOT EMPTY WITHOUT CHILDREN. |