This has been a hard month to stay focused. First its cold, and Im not really into a lot of winter sports. Second I have been working...a lot.
I havent been climbing in 2 weeks....maybe almost 3. And I dont know why
I have been working a lot, but I have had time.
My brother and I have made several dates to go but I have either been too tired and sore from work or we have ended up doing something else.
One he got a virtual reality headset that I could just live in right now.
But also, for some reason I am avoiding things.
I find it hard to focus on anything else when I am working. I am a seasonal employee and I dont work much in the summer. That allows me to adventure whenever the want is there. But when I go back to work, I work weird and long hours and I find that I crave my home. I never want to socialize or do much else. I havent even gone grocery shopping in weeks. My job drains me. It requires a lot emotionally. All that and I am fighting an uphill battle to get out and do other things.
So I am not sure how to change that other than one of two things: change my job or not worry about adventure until the summer.
Now I am laid off for a month in the new year and I know that I can get lots of climbing and adventure in there. BUT I really want to be better for you. Better for this site.
I think hope that this honest post is honest and helpful. I find it difficult to balance life with work. I dont really have work life balance and I need to create that.
there are facts and then there are emotions. This is as honest as I can be about my struggles and triumphs.